Disturbed
(An investigative, romantic and psychological thriller)
By
Kotra Siva Rama Krishna
Viola hissed out heavily and remained silent looking into my eyes.
“But to your information I did not read any in that book. I was about to read and the experience started on me.” I am thinking why I stopped reading that book? All the sexual memories invaded on me creating an uncontrollable desire and forced me to put it back in its place. Except for satisfying my urge, I could not think anything else then. Was it the reason for my experience in the library?
“You need not read that.” Viola said. “As you have read that book before itself, your mind brought all the narrations in that book onto surface. That does have the desired result.”
“I read that book a very long time before and I have not remembered any of it at that point of time. Now also I can remember only very little of it. Then how my mind put forth the narrations etc. in that book?” even a part of my mind is supporting Viola’s version, I cannot agree with it. An experience such life like cannot be an imagination.
“You are thinking that you have forgotten whatever you have read in that book. But your subconscious mind never forgets anything. So it puts forth….”
“Ola, will you please shut your bloody mouth?” I yelled loudly. “How ridiculous it is appearing that your saying just because of my reading or remembering that book, I have imagined all that? If you are thinking like that and if that is the final opinion of you for the experiences I have had, I don’t need you anymore. I can go to any other psychologist.” I angrily said.
Viola got off from the chair she sat and came near to me. She put her mind on my shoulder and squeezed it there.
“Just tell me again Dazzle, to whom you do go if I don’t take your thing in the way you want?”
“Another psychologist or a psychiatrist.” I said looking into her eyes.
“What a psychologist or psychiatrist does? What exactly psychology means?”
“A psychologist or psychiatrist treats the psychs. Psychology means studying of the minds.”
“Right.” Viola nodded her head and slumped beside me. “So our knowledge and studying is limited to mind. It does not go beyond that. Whatever you may say I just try to see that basing on the knowledge of psychology I have obtained so far. I cannot say whether it is because of some supernatural or unnatural. Because those are not my subjects.” She paused for a moment and saying while I am observing her intently. “All the other psychologists and psychiatrists also do say the same thing to you. Because both those categories only study mind.”
“Then to whom I have to go now? To an exorcist? Or to a sorcerer? A black magician?” I am in confusion. I am seeing some sense in what Viola said also.
“Oh, my god!” Viola hissed out heavily. “Before doing anything like that, tell me do you have belief in such type of things?”
“I don’t have belief in such type of things until recently. But as I have been continuously exposed to the experiences like these I am forced to believe in devils. Once I am forced to believe in devils I am started to believe in these types of things also.”
Now there is silence. Viola is seriously thinking. I know that she is suffering a lot because of my suffering. I am about to say something but before that Viola said. “There are no such things like devils and supernatural things Dazzle. They are just myths. In the same way black magicians and sorcerers are also just false. A waste of time. Don’t give yourself to such types of weaknesses. What you are feeling are just hallucinations Dazzle. You can be cured. Don’t worry too much.”
“How I am going to be cured? What you are going to do to cure me? Did you already brand me as a psychological patient?”
“It is really very difficult to deal with you Dazzle.” Viola is saying. “You yourself are saying that you are suffering from peculiar unwanted experiences. But you are not ready to agree that you are suffering psychologically.”
“I never agree that I am suffering psychologically.” I angrily said.
“Then why you are having such type of experiences so far?”
I remained silent while staring at Viola helplessly. I just don’t know what to say. I am slowly seeing the meaning in what Viola is saying.
“You are my best friend Dazzle. You are not just my friend you are my life in fact. You helped me many a time and because of you I am now in this position.”
I opened my mouth to say something to Dazzle but she impatiently waved me off.
“Let me complete Dazzle. I came here just because my subconscious mind is continuously saying that you are in danger. I am thinking that there may be a connection between your experiences and my subconscious signals.”
“You do believe in your subconscious signals. Then why don’t you believe in supernatural and devils?”
“I believe in supernatural and devils also Dazzle.” With a small voice Viola said.
“You just have said that there are no devils and supernatural and they are just myths.”
Viola hissed out heavily again and started saying. “Yes, I don’t believe them easily. But it is not so that they are not in existence at all. But I am not going to agree with their existence that easily. Of course, I am having a doubt that some supernatural is playing games with you.”
“Is it Chuck then?” now I am seeing some useful and in line with my opinion in whatever Viola is saying.
“Chuck died with heart attack.”
“You need not say me that. I am thinking Chuck became a devil and came on to me.” I angrily said.
“I know what you opined Dazzle. Ordinary human beings cannot become devils and come to us that easily. It is something else and acting like Chuck. If there is really any supernatural behind your experiences it is not Chuck. It is just acting like Chuck.”
“Why it does like that?”
“We cannot say. We cannot say until we know what it is and why it is after you.”
“But your theory is not that much agreeable to me Viola.” I said to her. “It talked just like Chuck. It is behaved just like Chuck.” Remembering the way I have been enjoyed in the library I said.
“Alright.” Viola nodded her head. “Before we decide whether it is Chuck or any other supernatural thing, we have to be convinced the experiences you are having are not because of psychological disorder.”
“You are still feeling that I am suffering psychologically?” I am staring at Viloa with a frown on my forehead.
“I am first a psychologist and then any other thing. Yes, I am still thinking some psychological disorder in you is the reason for your experiences. Until and unless I am sure that you are psychologically fit, I am not going to see this problem in any other angle even I am having belief in supernatural and devils.”
“But, still I cannot understand one thing” I am still looking into the face of Viola and saying “You have a psychic link with me and perceived I am in danger. But you are not believing that some supernatural causing that danger to me.”
“I did not rule out that supernatural thing completely Dazzle” Viola hissed out heavily and leaned back in the chair. “But, with psychic links we can know with whatever problems the other people are. They sometimes even physical and material problems also. They need not necessarily caused by some supernatural.”
I just don’t know what to say to this. “Alright then.” I nodded my head and saying. “But do something fast and save me from these unsavourable experiences.”
“I sure do that. You need no doubt in it at all.”
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I am normal in the office and not worrying too much about the experience I have in the home. But I am feeling fear that I may have that experience in the office also. Viola suggested me something to keep away such type of experiences far from me. That is I have to say to myself often that I am not dreaming, I am awaken and strong and would not be subject to hallucinations and imaginations. It appears quite silly to me but I did not argue with Viola. But surprisingly I am saying that in myself again and again without my intention.
I am now seeing the news paper. For the last two or three days I have not been seeing it. I am feeling fear that I may have to witness my Lipsom shares going even more down and down and could not dare to look at that. Now fixed in my mind and daringly went into the business section. There is a small column that we are purchasing Lipsom shares heavily. In the same column it is reported that Lipsom shares are up by thirty percent! I involuntarily got off from the chair I sat. Up by thirty percent! It is just working in the way George said. Every George failed in his ideas? I am feeling so much happy.
I am hearing now the ringing of my cell phone and I take it into my hand. It is George! I attended it and said “Hello, George. Good morning.” It is the first time on that day to me to talk with George.
“Good morning to you too.” There is a pause. “See in the business section of the paper. There it is reported our buying back Lipsom shares. It is already up by thirty percent.”
“I saw it George. You are ingenious!” I am laughing heartily. In fact I am feeling so happy that I have forgotten about the bad experiences in the house.
“Now I am coming to you Dazzle. There are important matters to discuss with you.”
His abrupt cutting off the phone irritated me. I leaned back in the chair and closed my eyes. George’s idea worked up hundred percent! I never can think an idea like this to make our Lipsom shares up.
I heard the sound of dragging of the chair and opened my eyes. George is in the opposite chair to me with a smile on his lips.
“I am feeling very happy George. I thought our Lipsom shares price may go even more down and down but it did not happen like that.” I hissed out heavily and saying with the same cheerfulness. “Now it is not just our company’s shares thirty percent up but we owned how much it is now?”
“Eighty five percent. We bought shares at a very low price indeed. Just wait, Lipsom shares go to new heights in very little time.” He is observing me keenly and I can understand why he is looking at me like this. However materialist a person may be, my glamour attracts him to the maximum.
“Oh, how much I do wish it!” I heartily laughed.
“I came to know why it has happened like that Dazzle.” George said with a small voice.
“Why, you came to know the reason?”
“Yes, it is the work of our business rivals.” I am listening intently while he is saying the names. “They are with the opinion to buy Lipsom shares in large measure once it came down drastically. They have started selling their shares and put even more for selling. But they did not expect that we buy it back ourselves. Their idea backfired on them.”
“Excellent indeed! Without you it never would be like this.” I am looking admiringly at him.
“It is not so. It is indeed a very simple thing. But the most important thing……” he paused for a moment. “We should never pledge our shares. Then only we can feel secured even it is happening like that to our company’s shares.”
“You are right. I agree with your opinion.” I nodded my head. “Are there any of our company’s shares on pledge with any financial institution?”
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