Disturbed
(An investigative, romantic and psychological thriller)
By
Kotra Siva Rama Krishna
“I agree.” Smaran is saying with a smile on his lips. “You please do something in your spare time to help me in my investigating.”
“Tell me what it is?” trying to guess what it is I said.
“Just try to think as many things as possible that you don’t believe even your father said about them to you. Make as big a list as possible.”
This exercise is appearing strange and surprising to me. Detectives and psychologists are peculiar things. “I sure do.” I nodded my head and am saying again. “I think there is nothing more than this I can say to you about this.”
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Now I am explaining about my strange experiences to Smaran. My hearing of weeping sound and trying to follow it to find that out, standing near the parapet wall on the terrace and stopped by Williams.
“Indeed very much surprising! For how long you are hearing that sound?”
“Not very long back. Anyhow I can say it all started only after my dad’s death.”
“I see.” Smaran nodded his head. He is looking into my face expecting to hear something more. There is lot I have to tell to him. But how can I say all about that to him? My touching experience in the bathroom, my being raped by Nathaniel and Chuck, there is a lot in fact.
“Are you sure that you have said everything in this regard Miss Dazzle?” as I am not saying anything more, Smaran asked me.
“Er…yes….yes I told you everything.” I am saying in haste. “You may start your investigation.”
“I am not thinking like that.” Smaran nodded his head in negation. “Unless and until you have shared everything, I cannot be much helpful.”
Once again I have started feeling so much of irritation on Smaran. Now my anger directed towards George. That bloody George put me in this cumbersome situation. There is no way to escape. If this Smaran says to that George I am not much cooperating with him, oh, god! I don’t want to think about the consequences.
I am now explaining to him my touch experiences in bathroom and my being raped by Nathaniel and Chuck while I am feeling intense shame in myself. “I am thinking it is just a psychological problem Mr.Smaran. How you can be helpful in this regard I cannot understand. Only a psychologist or psychiatrist can be helpful to me in this.” hissing out heavily I said.
“I am a psychologist also Miss Dazzle.” With that charming smile again, Smaran said.
“But you have come here as a detective not a psychologist.” Once again I am irritated.
“I agree. But my psychological skills are also necessary to solve this mystery.” Smaran is saying again. “For how long you are having these experiences?”
I closed my eyes thinking carefully trying to remember. “I must say Mr.Smaran, even cannot say the time exactly, I started feeling all this only after my dad’s death.”
“Did not you find anything strange in all this?” hissing out heavily Smaran asked me.
“Tell me about it?” by now I understood that there is something worth noted noticed by Smaran.
“This all started only after your father’s death. And your father died wanted to say something so desperately to you and without saying that.”
“Then?” I still cannot understand what Smaran wants to say.
“That something that your father wanted to say to you and the reason for your strange experiences are related. There is some inextricable link with these two.”
“How that would be?” I am feeling irritation once again. “My experiences so far are because of my psychological disorder. How that has to do anything with my dad’s that thing?”
“Psychological disorders like these do not start sudden.” Smaran is saying. “In your case you are perfect until recently. These all psychological disorders started in you only six months or so back.”
“You are absolutely true.” I have to agree. Smaran is revealing his wonderful psychological skills also.
“In my opinion, if we find out that something that your father so desperately wanted to tell you, your psychological problem also will be solved. That means we can know the reason what caused that psychological disorders in you.”
“Are you thinking that something external caused the psychological disorders in me Mr.Smaran?” my heart beating increased.
“I am quite positive about that Miss Dazzle. For the present I want to say only this much.”
There is some silence filled with curiosity and it is broken by Smaran. “In other way if we find out the reason for your psychological disorders we can find out what your father that much wanted to tell you.”
“Is it is so?” Smaran is appearing so different to me now. What George said about Smaran is hundred percent true. Now I am feeling quite confident that Smaran can solve this mystery.
“Yes, I am feeling that they are that much interrelated and linked.” With firmness in his voice Smaran said.
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More than two hours or so passed and still we are discussing about the problems and Smaran is asking all the things. I have said almost all about my rape experiences I think.
“I hope we have covered all the matters necessary Miss Dazzle.” With a satisfying look in his face Smaran said. “I want to say one thing for sure here.”
I hissed out heavily and said. “Tell me.” I reclined in the chair and am observing Smaran interestingly. In the end this Smaran turned out to be a very peculiar character for me.
“Your life is really in danger. You need to be very careful.”
I shuddered with fear on hearing that. If it is anyone else I would not have worried about that at all. But it is Smaran, who has already proved his intelligence and investigation skills more than enough for me.
“Menaka, she is my niece. She usually helps me in all my investigations. She is going to be with you every minute from now on. She just shadows you all the time.” With the same cool voice Smaran said.
“What?” I really did not understand what I just have heard.
“You heard it right Miss Dazzle.” Smaran once again said that to me.
“Mr.Smaran, are you really thinking that I do agree to this? What you are thinking about me?” with a smile on my lips I asked him.
“I know everything about you and your organizations Miss Dazzle. I know about your father also very well. I am having all the respect for you, your father and your organizations.” He is still saying and I am listening intently. “But it is must. You have to agree to this also if you want that I continue with my investigation.”
I know very well what happens if Smaran stops investigation. I am once again feeling full of irritation towards George. “How much aged she is? What she is doing?”
“Twenty four. She completed her graduation. She wants to study post-graduation but her mother is desperate about getting her married.”
I burst into laughter. “Alright. Let it be so then.”
“You need not worry about. Menaka is really a very intelligent girl. You can enjoy her company a lot.”
“I hope so.” I nodded my head.
“I don’t think we have covered each and everything. If you remember anything worth reporting, you call me directly or share the same with Menaka. But don’t stop reporting. It is very important.”
“Sure I shall do so.”
Smaran got off from the chair and said. “I am promising you to complete all this in one month. We have to sit more than one or two times before I complete it.”
“I have no objection whatsoever to that. Your company is very much interesting to me.” I too got off from the chair.
“Remember what I have said. Make that list. It is important.”
I really forgot. “What list sir?”
“The list of the things which you don’t believe even your father said about them to you.”
“I sure do try.” Puzzling in myself how to do that, I said.
“I go now Miss Dazzle.” He is now walking towards the threshold but turned once again to me and said. “Don’t think I am making you feel fear again and again. But be very careful. Your life is really in danger.”
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“What? A private detective? For what purpose Dazzle?” there is a surprising expression in the face of Viola.
“To know about the thing that my dad so desperately wanted to tell me but died without telling it.” Looking carefully into the face of Viola I said.
There is silence and I understood that Viola is thinking seriously. Now she is saying “Why did not we get this idea Dazzle? A private detective may really be helpful in knowing about that.”
“Are you also thinking like that? George also thought in the same way.”
“So it is because of that George. It seems he has got lot of influence on you.” Smiling mischievously Viola is saying. “Anyhow taking the help of a private detective is not a very bad idea.”
“But that private detective investigates not only about that but also….” I am explaining the rest also to her. “Are you thinking it is alright?” Finishing it all I asked her.
“You say is it is all appearing alright to you?” with frowns on her forehead Viola asked me. “Why George has got an idea like this?”
“I cannot say. But he is very much adamant about this.” I am once again feeling irritation on George.
“It is appearing ridiculous Dazzle. How he can investigate into your psychological disorders?”
“But the private investigator also is positive about the result. He said that there is an inextricable link between the thing that my father wanted to tell me and my strange experiences so far. He is thinking if one of them is solved the other automatically be solved.”
Once again there are frowns on Viola’s forehead. “May be he is right Viola. Alright, we shall see what this private investigator would do. He promised to you to solve the mysteries just in one month itself.” Hissing out heavily Viola said.
“Yes of course, he promised to me like that.” Nodding my head I am saying “It is not finished yet.” I am telling her about Menaka. “She is going to be with me always. She just shadows me without leaving me even for a minute until this investigation is finished.”
Viola laughed out. “It is really very amusing. When that Menaka is going to report? It is really very much interesting to me.”
“It is very much disturbing to me. But that Smaran is adamant. He said he stops investigation if I don’t agree to this.”
“What happens if he stops investigation?” with mocking seriousness Viola asked me.
I don’t know what to say.
“George would not marry you. He leaves you alone and goes away.”
“How do you know about it?” I am surprisingly looking into the face of Viola.
“With what else he can persuade you to all this Dazzle?” she asked me.
I closed my eyes and remain calm. Now I am feeling Viola’s hand on my shoulder and she squeezed it.
“So George agrees to marry you Dazzle.”
“Yes. Assumption right.” I am smiling now.
“Congratulations Dazzle! You have got whatever you desperately want to have.”
“But it is against your advice. You don’t like it.” I am saying. “You are right of course Ola. But I cannot…..”
“I can understand Dazzle. I can understand. Love is like that. Once you have reached such a stage in your heart about George, the only remedy to it is to marry him and make him your man.”
“Are you really feeling like that Ola? Am I not doing a mistake here?”
“I am not thinking that it is a mistake a Dazzle. As I have said earlier you are mostly thinking about your organizations and people directly and indirectly depended on it. For smooth running of your organizations George is very important. You want to keep him in your conglomerate by marrying him. In fact you are doing it for the other people than you Dazzle. Subconsciously this is the reason in your adamancy for marrying George.”
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