Disturbed
(An investigative, romantic and psychological thriller)
By
Kotra Siva Rama Krishna
“For the first time we are having it in a bedroom. In a comfortable way.” Occupying my body ravishingly Nathaniel said on that day. He was right. Until that moment we both have quenched our sexual thirst only in the store room. For the first time we both could go into our bedroom and used the bed for it without anyone else’ knowledge as there was on one in my house at that time.
I was fourteen years aged by then and became a woman. It was Nathaniel’s second or third time doing it to me after I became a woman.
“You are right….” I was about to say something but his mouth occupied my mouth. In all these days Nathaniel had become more and more expert in making sex. He became more and more steady in giving and taking. I still can remember how much I have enjoyed on that day. But I could not think of that would be the last day of our sexual life.
“Nathaniel died in an accident.” I cannot say now how much I was shocked on hearing it on that day. Nathaniel died in an accident! I knew that he drove his vehicle quite rashly. But I did not know that would cause his death like that. Emotionally I was not attached with Nathaniel. We both have just shared our bodies and enjoyed sex. There was nothing more than that. But Nathaniel’s death made me feel intensive fear. Someone who was quite well versed and acquainted with my body was dead.
“Don’t worry too much about Nathaniel, Dazzle.” Viola said to me. “It should not have happened like this, but it happened. We cannot do anything in this regard.
I nodded my head and remained silent.
“Make one thing clear Dazzle. Is there any love like thing between that Nathaniel and you?”
“Nothing like that. We have just satisfied each other’s physical demanding.”
“If it is only that much, you are lucky.”
“Is there any emotional relationship between you and that Nathaniel?” this time I asked her looking into her eyes.
“Why should there be a relationship between me and him?” looking surprisingly into my eyes Viola asked me.
“You said that Nathaniel has been having it with you also.” With a mischievous smile on my lips I said. “I have seen you both together doing that.”
Viola’s cheeks were blushed. “It is just like in your case. There is no sentimental or emotional relationship between us both either.”
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“I don’t leave you…..I don’t leave you…..I never forget the injustice your father did to me….I don’t leave you…..”
I sat straight on the bed and even I am not trying to hear anything particularly that voice is so clear to me. The same weeping and the same voice. Why it is killing me like this?
Now I am looking at Viola who is sleeping so peacefully beside me on the bed. Just like the past three or four days, she hypnotized me on this day also.
“I kill you…I don’t let you live longer….” That weeping voice is continuing.
That voice has a special bearing on me. It is filling my heart with utmost fear. I never have felt fear like this before. Why only I am subjecting myself to it again and again?
I could not find that woman even I have tried previously. At the same time that voice almost made me jump over the parapet wall. I am not interested to go after the voice now even it is quite compelling me to do so. It has a pulling force in it attracting me strongly towards it. I have squeezed shut my eyes and controlling myself not to go after that voice. The best course of action now I am thinking is to wake up Viola.
“Ola” my voice is shivering. I placed my hand on her shoulder and shaking her. There is no movement in Viola. She is sleeping like a baby.
“Ola please.” I am using even more strength this time. “Wake up. I need you now.”
My efforts are giving result. Viola is moving and slowly she opened her eyes and yawned heavily.
“What is happening Dazzle?” she is still sleepy.
“Why the bloody hell you are sleeping in my room?”
“Sorry Dazzle.” Viola at once sat on the bed. “Now tell me what is happening?”
“Are not you hearing anything?” I am still hearing the weeping voice and its saying so.
Viola closed her eyes while concentrating herself to hear. I am watching her keenly and frowns gathered on her forehead.
“I cannot hear anything Dazzle.” After few seconds she opened her eyes and said.
“My god! Ola. That voice is that clear! Why cannot you hear it?” I am feeling terribly frustrating now.
“I am telling you the truth Dazzle. I am not hearing anything at all.” Viola’s voice is firm.
“My god!” I took my head into my both hands and am saying “Why the bloody hell only I am imagining all this?”
“Just lay on your back Dazzle.” Viola said again.
“I have to go and find out what it is.” I am about to go off the bed but Viola stopped me by clutching my hand.
“Make yourself comfortable Dazzle. Do what I say.”
“But that voice is quite unsettling to me. I have to go after that. It has a dragging force in it. I cannot remain here anymore.” I once again tried to come out of the bed.
“You are listening to me Dazzle….You are listening to me…..You just do what I am going to ask…………Your body and mind completely under my control……….” Looking straight into my eyes Viola is saying.
I am feeling a surprising change in me. That voice is slowly fading.
“You lay on your back Dazzle. You just lay on your back.”
Quite involuntarily I laid myself on the bed.
“Now you are closing your eyes.” I am just obeying whatever she is saying.
“You are feeling terribly sleepy………. You cannot remain awaken anymore.............You are falling asleep………..”
I am feeling complete heaviness. I do feel like that before going into sleep.
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I am trying to relax myself sitting in my chair, leaning back after closing my eyes. Anyhow by following the Viola’s mind controlling technique now a day I am relaxing myself so easily. I am not thinking anything in particular. Thoughts about yesterday’s experience are invading on me. I just remain calm not even bothering to observe them.
Disturbing me heavily I have started hearing my cell phone ringing. I am started feeling irritation as I don’t want to be disturbed from my meditative state. I took it into my hand and looked onto the screen.
“George” my mood changed immediately into one of happiness on seeing his name in my mobile. “Tell me George.” I am saying straight to him after attending the phone call. “What’s the matter?
“I thought something what to do for the present situation Dazzle. If you come I do explain that to you.” His voice is as usual to me.
“Why don’t you come into my chamber? We can discuss this matter here itself.” Breathing deeply and hissing out I said.
“I am on leave on this day also Dazzle.” George is saying. “If you come we can discuss this matter in my house itself.”
“George, are not you feeling well? I never know that you take leave like this before.” Suddenly I am feeling agitation. Really I never have heard that George taking leave like this without notice.
“Nothing wrong Dazzle. In fact to discuss the matter in a peaceful and homely manner I preferred to take leave on this day also.” Now I am hearing his laughter. George is trying to make the situation light.
“If it is so I shall be there just in seconds. Come and wait at the door to open it for me.” I came off fast from the chamber and in seconds I am at my car. This time also I cannot find my driver there. Where the bloody hell he is going every time I need him? I need to think about it seriously. My mind is presently occupied with George’s thoughts. I slid myself before the wheel and started the car.
“In how many seconds I have come here?” As soon as George opened the doors for me I have asked him.
“I did not turn on stop watch and it really does not matter. Come inside.” Giving me way into his house George said.
Observing him keenly I entered into his flat. George is appearing jubilant on this day. In fact George all the time appears enthusiastic. Despite his forty four or so of years age, he appears boyish and active. He is nearly six feet tall and with muscular body. I can feel his shoulders arms and other organs strong even I am not touching him. I know he regularly goes to gym.
I slumped myself in the sofa where I sat yesterday and he occupied the chair opposite to me. He leaned back in it closing his eyes.
“Is it is that much important that you are pondering over like this?” after few seconds pause, I asked him with a smile on my lips.
Hearing my voice he opened his eyes and looked at me. I must say my charming smile has a mesmerizing affect on him. It caused a smile on his lips also. “Of course, yes.”
“Then don’t put me in suspense for long. Tell me what it is?”
“It is not something I just delve into it Dazzle. You should be patient.” He got off from the chair and went a little far and turned towards me then.
“I am considering everything Dazzle. Everything. From the point that your dad wanted to say something so desperately ….so desperately to you… and his heart attack suddenly like that….his unforeseen death…”
I interrupted him and am saying “My dad has a heart problem George….There is no surprise if he suffered suddenly like that and it caused his death…He was forewarned about it. But I am thinking he was not that much careful.”
“In other circumstances you are right Dazzle. But it happened after he phoned to you. After he phoned to you and said that there is something very important he wanted to discuss with you. That something I am thinking made him over agitated and caused the heart attack.”
“Your analysis is appearing reasonable George.” What George is going to say to me after all? I am feeling my heart beating faster.
“Now your strange experiences in the house. Your hearing strange sounds. Why it should be so Dazzle? Why do you feel like that?” once again George came into the chair and slumped himself in it. “Tell me why all this is?”
“I must say George.” I closed my eyes and reclined in the sofa “I am suffering from a psychological disorder.”
“Alright. I agree. But why that psychological disorder started in you?”
I opened my eyes and now am looking into his face. The dead serious expression in his face caused a frown to me.
“How can I say about that George? People sometimes subject to disorders like that. I distressed too much with my dad’s death. You very well know how much I am attached to him. That might make me mad.”
“Quite ridiculous! Quite ridiculous! You are not thinking in a proper way Dazzle.”
“George. Please don’t vex me much. Just tell me what you are thinking about all of this. Tell me what you really want to do or want me to do.” I am now irritating.
“I said to you Dazzle that you must be patient. It is not something I can say straight to you. To make you understand fully what I am thinking, you have to hear patiently whatever I am going to say and answer my questions.”
“Alright I am prepared.” I am smiling now using force. “Go on.”
“Really from when you started hearing the voices, having the odd experiences Dazzle?”
I closed my eyes concentrating to remember. “I think it is after my dad’s death George. Or a little prior to that.”
“Before your father’s death you were in USA.”
“You know about it very well.”
“Did you have any acquaintances while you were there?”
“I used to have some friends.”
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