Chasing butterflies …….
(A spicy hot romantic and suspense thriller)
By
Kotra Siva Rama Krishna
“What you are thinking?” Manohar did not like that she had fallen into thinking so. A thinking brain was a dangerous thing in his opinion. So far in the span of time of his relationship with Madhuri, he observed a fire in her.
“Nothing.” She forced a smile onto her lips. He liked her smiling so. That there was something in her he could not resist. It was not so that he did not go to any other woman. He was a kinky and he wanted all sorts of women. But Madhuri was quite different. The main problem with her was she was quite passive in sex. At the same time she would not allow him to do everything he wanted with her body.
“It seems that you need money.” He knew with what bait that fish would get on to the hook. “I have decided to give you a little more this time.”
“Thank you.” But she infuriated in herself as he could know the weakness of her and he was in full knowledge of her vulnerability. The small smile on his lips and the sadistic pleasure in his eyes and face made her even angrier but she knew very well expression of her feelings in whatever way would become quite dangerous to her.
She came to the opinion that it would be better to start that and see it came to an end fast. It would at the least prevent him from probing more and more into her. Sooner or later it must be done and she knew very well she could not escape from it.
She stood up and went near to him all the time hating herself for what she was doing. She put her hands around his neck like a garland before kissing him straight on his lips. But when she tried to disentangle herself from him, he did not allow her go free but hugged her even more strongly and led her slowly towards the bed.
After seeing the pathetic situation of her mother and after that ghastly incident happened like that on her, she started hating sex and her mental feelings convoluted even at the mention of it. Even after she became a full woman, even after she came to know the role of sex in human’s life, her mind never fully accepted it and still there was strong revulsion in her towards sex and whatever she was doing now was against her will and wish. Anyhow it has come to an end so pathetically for her after half an hour or so.
He slowly dressed himself up but she lied like that without any movement in her without bothering at all that her body was fully naked and in full view to him. The terrible pain under which she was then made her obviated her shame. She heard the rustling of the clothes and could understand he was dressing himself. For a moment she thought to be got up and dressed but there was no strength at all in her to do so.
She heard his footsteps and in a moment she felt his hand on her shoulder. “It seems that you have exhausted a lot.”
There was no answer from her. She used all the remained strength in her and pulled the blanket beside her all over her bruised and paining body.
“I am sorry. I have behaved like an animal. I forget myself while indulging in sex.” There was an apologetic note in her voice.
Still only the silence from her greeted him.
“May I go and prepare some coffee for both of us.” In his opinion on hearing that she would get up from the bed, go into the kitchen and prepare coffee for both of them.
Still there was only silence. She was not in a position to talk anything.
He nodded his head and went into the kitchen. He did not get any angry because even against her will and wish he could enjoy her in the way he wanted. It would have been fantastic if she too had been agreed to that. There were other reasons as well for his cool behaving like that.
Slowly she understood why he was trying to be good like that with her. It was not just for the sexual favours she was providing to him occasionally but he was depended on her for Susmitha. He was thinking that Susmitha would sooner or later contact her and then she would let it be known to him and he could finish with Susmitha. He did not know that her friendship with Susmitha was spoiled when she tried to make Susmitha a drug addict and not repaired again. She did not let him known about that at all because that would do a lot of damage to herself.
Madhuri vaguely could guess where Susmitha was. She did not express explicity but Madhuri could see some interest in her on Madan. After talking roughly like that with Madan, Madhuri had seen regretful feeling in her. Madhuri understood that she was trying to talk again with Madan and say apology to him but without giving her that chance Madan wrote his final exams and went to his village. Without raising her doubt, Susmitha asked the whereabouts of Madan also. She might not be with an intention to go to his village then but considering the present situation she might be there. But Madhuri did not want to tell Manohar where Susmitha was then. She could not believe it was just to make her to sign on some papers once she entered into twenty second year Manohar wanted to know her whereabouts. By the time he came there again she sat up on the bed still covering her body with the blanket.
“You are in heavy thinking.” Handing over her a coffee cup which he had taken in a tray along with other cup for himself Manohar said.
Without saying anything to him she took the coffee cup and started sipping. He sat beside her on the bed.
“I cannot understand where Susmitha has gone. Did not she contact you at all?” this type of dismay and distress in his voice was quite unusual.
Her silence was irritating to him. “You don’t understand my position. There is very little time left to her to enter into her twenty second year. Afterwards there would be nothing in our hands.”
“You said all that to me. But what I can do?” she just asked without any flavor to her voice.
“How is your relationship with her after you have tried that on her?”
“I said to you already. She did not suspect me. She just rejected the drug to take. She talked as usual afterwards with me.” She lied in the usual way. She did not want to tell him the truth.
“Then why did not she tell you about her mission? Why did not she contact you even after three days of her going away from here?” looking into her face he asked.
“Are you thinking I am not telling you any even she phoned to me? I am not telling you even I know where she is?” she angrily asked him.
“Surely no, I am sorry.” He changed his direction from her face. “I know that you would tell me in the immediate instant you know anything about her, you heard anything from her.” In fact he could not believe her much. But there was no way. He must act as if he believed her.
“I can understand your tension Manohar.” She changed her voice so, as if she really understood his trauma. “I shall contact my overseas friends as well and try to know if she has gone there.”
“I am not thinking that she left the country.” Once again turning his gaze onto her face Manohar said. “Anyhow you may try in all the ways you think possible.”
They both remained silent as they did not think of what to talk more.
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More than half an hour or so has passed after Manohar left. But the way he treated her body while satisfying his sexual urge was terrible and it was still a painful moss. Without bothering about her wish and will at all Manohar raped her brutally. He subjected her to his kinks and she felt quite humiliated. How much she was disgusting in herself and hated herself as she has to give herself helplessly again and again to satisfy his sexual lust! Moreover this time he crossed all the boundaries. She wanted to shun him and go away from him. But only her mother’s words stopping her. “You must not lead a pathetic life like me. Choose someone who can give you good life. Marry him. Lead a happy marital life with him.”
This Manohar appeared to her as a good person. He talked with her nicely. After knowing he was a very rich person she felt quite happier and accepted his friendship. He took her to his home. That friendship developed a lot later on.
But Madan warned her. “That Manohar is not appearing as a good man to me. Don’t be friendly with him.”
She nodded her head and said “I sure do as you say. But will you do one thing for me?” looking into his eyes she asked.
“Tell me. What it is?” he asked.
“It is something more than the usual help you do to me every time.” She said.
“First tell me what it is?”
“Would you marry me?” she asked him straightly
She could see the bewilderment in his eyes then. He did not say anything immediately.
“Tell me, would you marry me? If you are ready to marry me, I stop being friendly with him.” she said.
“This is too much Madhuri. I cannot say I shall marry you. We should not marry anyone out of sympathy.” She saw hurt in his face.
“Is it is just like that or do you hate me?” she could not understand why she was talking with him then so.
“Why do I hate you?” his face was even more wrinkled.
“My life is like that. Who likes a person whose mother is a prostitute and who was raped by a brute in her childhood.”
Madan did not say anything to her. She understood that he did not know what to talk with her then.
“I am thinking that this Manohar would marry me. He is so nice to me.” With firmness in her voice she said.
“Did he say that he would marry you?” he asked her.
“Yes, he said.” She lied to him. By that time Manohar did not promise to her that he would marry her. But she did not want to leave the friendship of Manohar at all.
“Do you believe him?” he asked her straight.
“Why should not I believe him?” she asked him
“He has got a bad reputation. I am hearing bad things about him.”
“Only you are saying so. I did not hear any bad things about him at all.”
He paused sometime and then said resignedly. “Its alright. Do as you wish. I thought it is necessary to warn you. If you are thinking that he is really a very good man, I cannot help it.”
She saw helplessness in him. “Madan, your family helped me a lot. You are ready to help me even more if I want. But I want something more on all of that. I am thinking that this Manohar would give it to me. I am not ready to leave it.”
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