Chasing butterflies …….
(A spicy hot romantic and suspense thriller)
By
Kotra Siva Rama Krishna
“Why should you try to stop her? If she likes you what would be the problem to you?”
Vineet looked into the face of Pallav as he could not believe what he had said. “Are you really saying this to me?” he asked still unbelieving what he heard.
“Why you are feeling yourself inferior? In fact that Sukanya is quite fortunate in picking you up as her lover.” With an assuring tone Pallav said.
“But I am not educated. She is a post graduate …” Vineet tried to say something more.
“Education is not all Vineet. Character is. We are all seeing that in you including Sukanya. If Sukanya is really loving and liking you, you don’t try to stop her doing that. You both shall become a very good pair.” Pallav said.
“I am so grateful, so grateful to you. I really did not expect this from you.” Vineet at once flooded with relief and it was expressed in his face also.
“Why did not you have expected because I seldom express my feelings out like this.” Pallav said. “I love and like you as much as I love and like Madan. You may not have education but if it comes to property you sure shall have some share in our properties.”
Vineet hugged Pallav and kissed on his cheek. Tears started flowing down on his cheeks.
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“You are having no time at all to talk with me or to spend time with me. I have become less important to you.” Looking at Sukanya accusingly Madan said. He was squatting on the bed in his bedroom.
“These are indeed serious allegations. Why did you have come to such an opinion? Just try to remember why I came here?” settling herself in one of the chairs in that room Sukanya said.
“You have come because of my requesting you to come here, of course”. He paused for a moment before continuing “You have seen how she behaved last night. She said that Mamatha tried to enter into her body. Is it is not a thing which can make us enough excited?” His voice became worrisome.
“I am spending time with her and trying to understand the problem. I wanted to discuss that with you when I have come to some understanding on that and in fact I have come to you now only on that mission.” She breathed deeply and said “I could come to a little opinion basing on her yesterday’s behavior.”
“Good. Tell me then. There is no problem to the psyche of Susmitha, is there? There is no necessity to fear about her, is there?” looking into the eyes of Sukanya, Madan asked hopefully.
“There may be no problem at all. There are no psychological bouts in her except the yesterday’s night after I have come here. But still one thing is puzzling to me. She is such an educated and intelligent woman. How could she was subjected to such type of hallucinations?” with a frown she said.
“That is what surprising to me as well.” Madan anxiously said.
“You said that you have told her about Mamatha in full. You felt you did a nice thing. You thought that should not be concealed from her at all.” Knitting her brows together while looking into his face straight, Sukanya asked him.
“Did I do a mistake there?” stooping forward in the chair, Madan asked her.
“No, of course. But she made her own assumptions basing on that. It is just like I have thought. I expressed it to you in before itself.” Sukanya thoughtfully said leaning back in the chair. “She is very deeply in love with you. I can see that in her face and eyes. I think there is an unknown deep rooted fear in her that Mamatha may come and claim you. Her subconscious brain subjected her to these illogical imaginations without her knowledge.”
“But that Mamatha was dead. How she can come and claim me?” Madan irritatingly asked. While he was saying that Sukanya observed him to see if there was any remorse in his face. But seeing only irritation and impatience in his face, she got irritated. He was not feeling any pity even at such a thought that she was dead.
“How can you are that much sure that she was dead?”
“It was impossible to anyone to escape from those fast flowing waters. You too might have seen how fast the river is flowing even now too.” The fast flowing river was momentarily flashed in both of their minds.
“That river is furious I agree. But still there is a chance for miracles. Someone might have saved her.” closing her eyes Sukanya said.
“Then why did not she come to her home yet? It was more than two months or so back it had happened.”
“I cannot explain. But her chances of survival cannot be ruled out hundred percent until we see her dead body.”
“She might be flown into the sea or she might have become food to the wild water creatures or her body might be decomposed and thrown on to the bank in an unrecognizable way at a faraway place. We cannot hope the recovery of her body.” Madan thoughtfully said.
There was silence in between both of them then. “Alright. We can talk about Mamatha later. First tell me how the condition of Susmitha? I really upset very much on seeing her behavior so in the night. She said Mamatha had tried to enter into her. What that means?” breaking that silence Madan said again.
“Nothing. That is just her hallucination.” Sukanya said with a small voice.
“So it is only her hallucination or something like that and there is no necessity to feel fear.”
She could sense his relief in his voice. “I said that it is just her hallucination. I did not say that there is no necessity to feel fear.”
“I did not get you at all.” Madan confusingly said.
She got off from the chair, went to the centre of the hall and turned towards him. “Imagination is more dangerous than the reality. If you want to demolish a physical structure you can do that by using labour in one or two days. But you cannot take away false beliefs and imaginations however hard you may try. It is difficult to free ourselves from imaginations and false beliefs even then too when we believe them only as imaginations and false beliefs. It is almost impossible to make someone free from false beliefs and imaginations when that person is thinking that they are true.” Observing his face closely she continued. “Now she is in such a condition. Her problem is now not just the imaginations and false beliefs but her strong belief that they are true.”
The fear which left him moments before returned to him safely again. “What type of problems that her imaginations and false beliefs may cause to her and to us?” his tone was in a different modulation as fear and irritation mixed in it.
“Difficult to say what type of problems but sure create problems if her condition is neglected.”
“Then what is the best course to follow now? Is it is better to show her to a more experienced psychologist or to a psychiatrist?” the irritation was even more intensified in his voice.
“It is not better to brand her as a mental patient yet. Luckily she has accepted me as her close friend and she is opening her heart freely and sharing everything with me. I shall try to debunk her false beliefs and make her come out of her false imaginations. But it is all takes time and you must not become impatient.” She said and breathed deeply. “One lucky thing here is, her false beliefs and imaginations are quite recent, came into existence only after she came here. She was quite a healthy girl mentally also before coming to this place.”
“How can you say it like that?” a frown gathered on the forehead of Madan.
“I have a thorough discussion with her. She made it quite clear that she never believed in devils before seeing Mamatha on that day and she never imagined any such type of thing in whole of her life.” Sukanya said.
“Thank god!” there was some relief in Madan’s face. “But she has put herself into problems by coming here.”
“Yes, you are right. She has got relieved from one set of problem and put herself into another set of problem.” Sukanya said. “But here you are for her to do anything for her. She is so safe and happy with her lover. Of course she is in a problem but this is not that much big as the former one. In fact she is lucky she has got someone like you.”
“This is other way around. I am lucky that I have got someone like her.” Suddenly with a happy expression in his face, Madan said. Susmitha’s love on him gave him a sudden happy feeling.
“You both are lucky, alright” Sukanya laughed and said.
“Anyhow sometimes you are saying that she is subjecting herself to hallucinations and sometimes that she is imagining. What is the correct word?” Madan asked her suddenly.
“Involuntary imagination is called as hallucination. There is not much difference.” Sukanya smiled and said.
There was some silence between them both then.
“You are the only hope to me now and I am fully depended upon you.” Suddenly breaking that silence, with a pleading tone Madan said. It indeed moved her. “Please do everything you can and make her normal.”
“You need not tell me about that particularly.” The chair which she had vacated became the victim of her weight again. “You are my dearest friend. I shall sure try to help you. It is my promise to you that I sure make Susmitha normal in all respects.”
“Oh, that is enough.” He came out of the bed on which he was until that moment sat and placed himself in the chair opposite to her. “But minimize your visits into the fields and spend more time with Susmitha. If you want I shall ask Vineet to stay in the house itself.” He smiled mischievously.
“You naughty. Who said I am going into the fields for Vineet?” her cheeks were blushed with shame but she liked the topic. She in fact wanted very much that Madan knew her love with Vineet.
“Some things shall be known like that.” Observing her blushed face with fascination Madan said. “Anyhow it is not important how I could know. Tell me frankly whether you are in love with Vineet or not?”
“I don’t want to lie to you. I am deeply in love with Vineet.” She turned her head down and said.
“I appreciate your openness. From scratch what I liked most in you is your openness and straightforwardness.” He paused for a moment and then said. “It may not appear reasonable and good for most people but you did a very nice thing by selecting Vineet. What has prompted you to love Vineet I cannot say but it is indeed would do lot of good to you.”
“Madan, really, really do you mean what you have said?” she perched her head up and looked into his eyes. Her eyes were sparkling with pleasure.
“There is no necessity to me to talk that which I don’t mean.” He paused few seconds before continuing in the same firm voice. “Vineet is having no money, no education but he has character. He is indeed a very good boy.”
“In the same way Susmitha as well told to me. She encouraged me to love Vineet.” Sukanya said.
(I hope that you enjoyed upto here. I shall publish the next chapter as soon as possible. Please don’t forget to rate and review it)
